The Lord gives me exactly what I need when I need it. I don’t always think so, and when I can’t sleep because of anxiety or stress, or when I get choked up by fear, I forget that. Then my friends ask, “Have you prayed about it?” or “Have you been reading the Bible?” *facepalm* (Side note- find yourself some friends who will ask you this).
I forget how much I love God’s words. I forget just how important they are. They are the way He gives me what I need, which is usually a reminder of just how much He matters, and just how much I am in love with Him.
But for me it is good to be near God; I have made the Lord God my refuge, that I may tell of all your works.
I don’t always feel that way though. I know what it’s like to not have time, or to not want to even though I know I should be reading Scripture or praying about something. Heck, that was me this past week! But then I do read it, because I reach the point where nothing matters anymore and I get all Eeyore-ish, or because I tell myself I have to, or because one of my wonderful friends reminds me that I should. And many times, I fall in love again. Sometimes I don’t, because to be completely honest the Bible can be tough. Open up to Leviticus or Numbers and some of those chapters are a bit wordy and not much seems to be going on.
But here’s the thing- like I said in the beginning, God gives me (and you) what we need when we need it, and when we ask.
“Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened.
If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!”
Matthew 7:7-8, 11
So to recap- God gives us what we need, and more. He gives us blessing upon blessing. And His Word is beautiful.
The reason I say all this is because I believe it, and because I know firsthand that it matters. I’m a complete fanatic about the Bible. Because I love it. Because He saves me every day, and gives me grace to live everyday, and loves us so passionately that I don’t understand it sometimes. One of my biggest hopes is for everyone who reads this to fall more in love with Scripture than I am.
It matters because it tells us who God is. It matters because it tells us what is important.
When I struggle with stress, God speaks rest. When I struggle with fear, God speaks love. When it’s anxiety, He speaks peace. When it’s depression, He speaks purpose. When it is joy, He makes it complete. In everything we face, feel, think, or struggle with, He gives us truth and grace to deal with it.
Recently my anxiety got the better of me, and then I read this:
How lovely is your dwelling place, O LORD of hosts! My soul longs, yes, faints for the courts of the LORD; my heart and flesh sing for joy to the living God.
Even the sparrow finds a home, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may lay her young, at your altars, O LORD of hosts, my King and my God. Blessed are those who dwell in your house, ever singing your praise!
Blessed are those whose strength is in you, in whose heart are the highways to Zion. As they go through the Valley of Baca they make it a place of springs; the early rain also covers it with pools. They go from strength to strength; each one appears before God in Zion.
O LORD God of hosts, hear my prayer; give ear, O God of Jacob! Behold our shield, O God; look on the face of your anointed!
For a day in your courts is better than a thousand elsewhere. I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of wickedness. For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD bestows favor and honor. No good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly. O LORD of hosts, blessed is the one who trusts in you!
I start to panic, and become overwhelmed with trying to control every situation. BUT GOD speaks peace and reminds me that He is what matters and the rest is detail.
May our hearts and souls long for the courts of the Lord. Sometimes I get this out-of-place feeling, and I just want to be home. Our citizenship is in heaven, not earth, after all. But God has given us grace in this time as well, and when we long for home, where He is, we can turn to His Word, which will give us strength, wisdom, and what we need to press on.
One last thing about the Bible: sometimes we need to read something to just keep us going. But there are more times when we need to read it to understand, to study, to know the truth. I’ve already written about the importance of knowing truth, and you can find that post here still, but I just wanted to throw that out there again. Sometimes reading the Bible takes a good deal of thinking and studying to understand it at all. But it is worth it, and putting in time to understand makes me, and hopefully you, love it and our Creator more.